Today's post I'm getting real. Like real, Amanda Bynes needs help real.
Ha, sorry-lame joke.
I've been meaning to post about this for a while now, but the words haven't really come to me until tonight. Over eight years ago I was diagnosed with OCD and Anxiety.
At first it was hard to adjust to, but now it's simply become a part of who I am. Some days I hardly notice it, others, like today, anxiety decides to reel her ugly head and completely-well, suck.
It's been a long week. I'm nannying full time and the kids were both sick with a cold. A cold which I contracted and stayed in bed with all day yesterday. So, today is finally Friday and is the first Friday which my lovely man has off in over three weeks.
What do I do? Come home exhausted and totally grumpy from being overly tired. I know I should put a smile on and be upbeat for M, but I can't manage it. I'm also totally anxious. No idea why-some days it just happens.
That, I want to crawl out of my skin, totally jittery anxiety.
And you know what? It sucks.
But, it's a part of who I am. Luckily, I have a guy that loves me enough to want to hold me and just be with me even though I'm a total grump-a-lump and keep insisting he goes out without me to have fun (my I-don't-want-to-deal technique.)
And that's just it. I know it will get better and tomorrow I'll be my regular chipper self. It's just a part of life for me. And I know it always gets better.
Luckily, writing makes me feel better. So, I decided to spill my guts to you all.
So, for all ya'll who have anxiety out there- I send you hugs. I know sometimes it simply sucks. And you know what? Let it suck for a little bit. It's good to be gentle with yourself. And then, dust yourself off, eat a scoop of ben and jerrys and keep on keeping on (at least that's what I try to do.)
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